Poetry-VIII Silent Tears

I close my eyes hoping I could see you
But I end up travelling in memories
I search the whole world wishing I could find you
But I end up watching you still in my mind
I try my best to live up by your words
But I end up following the words of demons
I wish I could count the stars
But I end up counting my problems and pains
I try, yes I try my best to be beautiful and strong
But I find myself drowning in the ocean of sadness
Because at this time, I’m not okay for you’re not there with me
And I’m left all alone filled with silent tears

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( voice from heaven )

I know you’re strong, beautiful and not alone
For I’m there with you
For I can hear your voice and see your tears
And I promise to never leave your side
So, Don’t cry for me, now I’m gone
But I’m still not dead for I live in your heart
Now, go in peace and follow your heart
And dry away that silent tears โ€ฆ.

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I don’t know what it feels like losing someone but I do know loss of someone isn’t the loss of love. Four months ago,I got a call from my friend and we blabbered about random stufffs. And then suddenly, I came across the news of death of one of my friend’s mother . My heart was in tangels now, and I found myself shattered. Just one question from myself–It’s been one year and how could I not know about this. I didn’t even had courage to call and ask her how was she doing? My heart felt apart for I wasn’t there with her when she needed someone. I had thousands of questions in my mind. I mean, she did everything she could possibly do for me but how about me ? I couldn’t even ask her how was she doing. I know, Death is inevitable and one who knows how to accept it is the one who knows the law of life and death. But I guess, it’s not pretty easy to do so. Well, it’s not just she. Last month, I heard about death of my mother’s friend and I again fell in the sea of same questions. What it’s like for a 5 year and 13 year old children losing their dear ones ? There are millions of cases like this, where children and teenagers face the lose of their loved ones. I don’t expect much but yes, we can surely be with them instead of looking down at them.

I don’t know the purpose of writing this maybe, I just want to thank my mom and my life for everything I recieved. Moreover, I appreciate the strength of everyone who faced loss in this pandemic……….. (I don’t prefer writing about something so personal but I was selfish and I just wished my mind to be in peace) . Thank you for reading ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿค—


-Aanchal Parmar

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  1. This poem is is beautiful, your words jumped into my heart. I love the effortless flow you created, so powerful. What a strong purpose behind it too, life is always teaching us something. Keep learning, shining and growing…my dear friend ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ–ค

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    1. Thank you so much my dear friend for your lovely comment and for always taking time and effort for appreciating me … It genuinely means a lot. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’•
      And I definitely agree with your words ๐Ÿ™Œโฃ๏ธ

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  2. โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ each and every word has it’s own emotions and feelings. You really understand everyone.

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    1. I really love you my dear friend and no one can understand the emotions behind this post better than you โค๏ธโค๏ธ.
      I couldn’t speak to you that time but I hope this won’t happen again….

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  3. When one as completed one’s scene in a Play, one exits stage right, or stage left… and May never again play an active part in the Play… yet one can still play an integral part in the outcome of the Play when referred to by the other characters in the Play…

    Yet leaving the stage… leaving that particular production, does not mean the eradication of the player… for other Plays… other productions may well be in the pipeline…

    So it is in Life’s Drama, (or may be… if one is a skeptic), for one leaves… leaving only memories of oneself behind… but any other Drama? Any other Production? Is outside of the ken of those left behind.

    Death is both an exit, and an enter… leaving the stage of life, is not as important as preparing for the next Production…
    ๐Ÿ‡ฏ๐Ÿ‡ฒ๐Ÿ–๏ธ

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    1. Wow, firstly thank you for taking efforts to read my blogs …..
      You are absolutely right……. Death is both an exit and an enter . Wise are those who accepts it. Although it’s pretty hard but everyone learns and evolve ……. I loved every single line you wrote here and you made it clearer…..๐Ÿค— ๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡ณ

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  4. You’ve managed to capture the pain and the grief so beautifully. It’s not easy, losing someone, especially if it’s unexpected. My eyes were welling by the time I read reading the second para. Beautifully written, Aanchal

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    1. I’m so pleased to see your beautiful comment ๐Ÿค—โฃ๏ธ
      I agree with your words ๐Ÿ™Œ. It’s really hard to get over something but there’s always an energy in us which can make it happen.
      And yeah, I’m sorry for I made your precious tears fall down. ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ™‚๐Ÿ’•

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  5. Lovely work ๐Ÿคฉ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ
    Starting words was too overwhelming ๐Ÿ˜… which can easily tell the deep pain behind the words of the writer ๐Ÿคฉ๐Ÿ˜€
    โ€œI close my eyes hoping I could see you
    But I end up travelling in memoriesโ€
    Truly loved these lines๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿคฉ

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    1. Thank you for feeling the emotions behind this poem and appreciating it….๐Ÿ’•
      This is how life is , but you are strong and you you can surely deal with it. I highly appreciate your bravenes…๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™Œ

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  6. When I came to the 2nd stanza, I understood what the poem was actually about. Then I read it again, from the beginning. It was overwhelming. Such a truly beautiful poem. Heartfelt appreciation. A very touching poem. ๐Ÿ™‚ A very delicate matter, handled beautifully. Much support to your friend who faced an unimaginable lossโ€ฆ

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    1. Thank you so much for feeling the emotions behind this poem and writing such a lovely comment …….
      This is how everything is but hope and love never dies. I’ll pass your message to my friend….

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  7. I love these poems, dear Aanchal. They are deep, raw, and explore the human emotional beingness so well. Loss is so hard…of love and life, so difficult, yet, as you write, they are a part of the human experience. I’m saddened to read about the losses that you and your family and friends have had recently. My heart goes out to you and your loved ones.โค๏ธโค๏ธ

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    1. Thank you, friend for understanding the pain and emotions behind this๐Ÿ™……. I’m happy to know you loved the poems … I wholeheartedly agree with you that loss is difficult but a part of life. So, you don’t need to be sad for loss of life isn’t the loss of love๐Ÿ™‚๐Ÿ™Œ
      I will pass your beautiful message to my friend….๐Ÿ™‚โฃ๏ธ.

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  8. The poems are beautiful Aanchal and so are your thoughts.

    I think you must talk to your friend.

    I have written about death a few times – this is the tenth anniversary of the passing away of my beautiful wife!
    It is death alone that gives meaning to life. And we need to live as if we have returned after death and every minute is a bonus.

    Death my dear is the only certainty in this uncertain world. We need to learn to face it fearlessly. And we need to have kindness and compassion for those who lose their loved ones.

    Keep shining your light Aanchal. Love and blessings ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿค—

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    1. Thank you sir for always being their to appreciate my work…
      I talked to my friend after a week when I came to know about the news but unfortunately I couldn’t talk to her on this topic for it was quite difficult for me . She is one of my biggest supporter. She read this post and even commented on it…. It’s good to have such a lovely friend.
      I agree with your words that life and death is the only certain things qn the world and maybe that’s the reason I chose my blog title “living with dying”. (That’s another story though ๐Ÿ˜…)
      One of the best lesson that spirituality teaches us is that everything is temporary in this materialistic world. If anything’s permanent then that’s the death and if anything is counted then that’s the blessings we receive from our good deeds not the wealth …..
      A very thanks for your words and for your beautiful interpretation……
      Have a beautiful rest of the day. Lots of love and gratitude ๐Ÿ™โค๏ธ๐Ÿ˜Š

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  9. Though we all understand that death is the only certainty in life but still losing a loved one is always painful and cannot never be overcome..we move on but the thoughts follow…
    Yes, being with people who have suffered specially during this pandemic is a way of supporting…
    Very well expressed Aanchal…
    Stay blessed always ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™

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    1. Your words has added more charm for you managed to express it better. I agree with your words .
      Thank you for letting me know your beautiful thoughts and appreciating the work….
      Have a beautiful rest of the day ….
      Thanks again ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™

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  10. Please know how much I understand the things that you are saying. I have been negligent of responding to the grief that some of my friends have had to bear. It was about five years ago that one of favorite friends of high school, military service, and comparable work duties, that I found out from a third party friend, that my friend had died. It was at that time in my life that I began a search for classmates, friends, and family members that I had lost contact with, many years earlier. Since that search began, I have been pleased with the success of my search. I donโ€™t expect everybody to understand the reasons for my search, but I tell them. I have learned that whenever a loss occurs in anybodyโ€™s life, that a very appropriate thing to say is, โ€œI am very sorry for you loss.โ€ Death is truly a loss. I am a believer in Christ, and I know that I will be united with many of my deceased family and friends in heaven. Death is a loss, because even though we will be reunited in heaven, the relationship that we had on earth with our deceased loved one, will be far different from what it was on earth, such as in a husband and wife earthly relationship. It will be good being with Jesus, which will be far greater than any relationship that we could ever imagine. But, the love that we have for a husband or wife in this life, will be nowhere near the relationship that we will have with Christ, our Lord and Savior. So, for now, we should love our friends, and bear their burdens with them (Galatians 6 :2)..

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    1. Thanks a lot for leaving such a beautiful message here …. I definitely agree with your words, they are so pure …. Life is too short to hate anyone and the lesson Christ taught us is to love even our enemies. So I believe your search is really successful and you are really doing great for the time we have now won’t be with us tomorrow and the relation we have now , may not be there tomorrow…..
      I couldn’t thank you enough for such a beautiful interpretation…… I truly consider your words..

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      1. Thanks for your kind words. May other people come to understand the importance of our friends, relatives, classmates, and anyone else who may come into our lives. You are absolutely right when you say…”life is too short.”

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  11. Anchal dear, as per the poems I have gone through I am quite impressed with your passionate poetry expressing feelings/ emotions in such a powerful way! keep up such mesmerising creations! God bless you ๐ŸŒทAll the best ๐Ÿ™

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    1. Thanks a lot for appreciating it……
      At my highs knowing you loved it .. Blessed to have such beautiful comment, the best one for the day……. Keep blogging… I too liked your travelling blogs….
      Thanks again ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™ . Means a lot

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