POETRY — Suicide Note 📝

It’s time to say goodbye now.

The grief I  got inside me feels so numb .

The hatred I got inside me feels so cold. 

The emptiness I got inside me feels so despised.

And I struggled, yeah I did …..

I struggled to forget those experiences but sorry I couldn’t. 

I struggled to love myself but yeah I failed again.

I struggled to fight the demons around me but sorry I couldn’t.

You ask me how I’m doing , I tell you I’ve been fine .

But the truth is ,….

I’ve been feeling worthless and I’ve been out of my mind.

I try hard to run but I end up being slow . 

I guess I ain’t happy with the person that I’m. 

I’ve got many enemies and maybe they took  control of  me .

They made my heart bleed and my soul cry .

Sorry to all my friends and family . 

I couldn’t say it to you so I put it in a note .

I don’t wanna feel this pain anymore. 

I don’t wanna fight anymore. 

And dear, I don’t want you to feel bad about it .

For now , I wanna be alone.

For now , I hate myself, I hate my life . 

For now, this is the end …….. 

Sorry but now it’s time to say goodbye.

 

To,
All those beautiful spirits feeling suicidal….
Dear friend,
I know I don’t know you but I know you are going through much . I understand you live among demons and they are so loud and furious . I know you feel like giving up and you find no way . I know you fought a lot . You may feel hopeless now, but it’s temporary; there are so many other feelings within you that will replace the ones that feel so unbearable now. the pain — like the dizziness — isn’t forever. I know you have been exhausted. I know you would rather choose to leave than live . but listen , you can do much more . You can live and you are worthy of it . So I ask you to stick to life. If you stick around, you will reach a spot that the sadness won’t let you see right now — you’ll reach tomorrow and that place is filled with possibility. It’s a day you’ve never been to. It’s not this terrible day. you may be stronger, or see things differently, and life may look a way it hasn’t in a long time. It may look like worth staying for.

This is when a guy feels suicidal . It’s very hard to understand their mental state . To the closed ones, I’m happy I got you and I ain’t feeling suicidal . I just wrote about them and their mental state so that everyone can understand it . Now, you see you can’t understand few things until and unless you feel it . So, this note just defines their mental state and this basically tells us that they need someone to listen them without judging them . I hope it makes sense. Thanks for reading

-Aanchal Parmar

19 Comments

  1. Aditri says:

    Buddy seriously you’re an amazing person ❣️and now I have got to know that u r and amazing writer or poet whatever you call it.
    Your poems have similar thinking of the teenagers as of know , when they feel pressure , stress, depressed or as that suicidal thought . 😔
    But yeah it’s true that life is beautiful 🌹🙂and gives everyone a second chance . Some loose the patience to get the chance and some have patience and their second chance is always better than the first.✌️👍
    I have known you for a short time but I am greatful 😀that we have built a stronger relation in these short periods.
    Wishing you luck❤️ that you keep writing like this and achieve success..😚
    Btw I relate to the poem ☺️ but not the suicidal thoughts …
    We think same at some points..
    😂😂😂
    Love u 💕
    ❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️

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    1. Thanks a lot Aditri. You got me here . Thanks for being supportive and inspiring me each and every time . Genuinely words mean a lot to me and it’s my pleasure that you chose to write for me .
      I wish no one relates to suicidal thoughts🤞🏻. Let’s just hope for good and do our best . ❤️❣️❣️❤️

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  2. The Writer says:

    This is something serious right down here. I will make a follow up or commentary on this

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    1. Sure . Go for it . It would be pleasure if you delve into this and come up with more research . Thanks a lot ……..

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  3. Are you ok? Remember there’s always someone u can reach out to.

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    1. I’m good. Thanks for your concern. Actually I encountered two suicide cases near me and I couldn’t think of anything else. So I wrote it according to there perspective. I must edit this so that ppl don’t get wrong idea. Thank you for your kind words. 🙂❤

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  4. minajean says:

    That was a really great tribute to all who felt left behind. Nice job.

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    1. Thank you. 🙂🙏Unfortunately there are so many who will to leave the world . I wish I could say them that they are wanted and make them stay….

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      1. minajean says:

        I think you’re off to a wonderful start. Just remember how many souls you have touched, how many times you made someone feel that moment they were searching for. I m not in such situations but you definitely made me think about all the wonderful things I appreciate. Keep on you’re path, it’s making a difference. 😊

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      2. That’s one of the best compliment I’ve received yet ….. Many thank you for this….
        Just how beautifully you appreciated it…. Life is fair at times and unfair too but above all its beautiful ❤️. I hope we will together bring beautiful changes both in us and around us….

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      3. minajean says:

        ❤🤞😁🤞❤ me too.

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  5. Kokila Dawra says:

    Woww…this is really helpful for the people who r suffering….did a great work i must tell ya👌👍

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    1. Thank you for your appreciation….. I wish I could make those ppl stay……..🙂❤️
      Life is beautiful and sometimes unfair too… But hope always find its way

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      1. Kokila Dawra says:

        Yeahh truee🙂🙂

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  6. Love Alone says:

    Reblogged this on Love & Love Alone.

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  7. nanyahbaby says:

    True words have been spoken

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thank you 😊🤍
      Good to know you felt that way….

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