POETRY — Suicide Note 📝

It’s time to say goodbye now.

The grief I  got inside me feels so numb .

The hatred I got inside me feels so cold. 

The emptiness I got inside me feels so despised.

And I struggled, yeah I did …..

I struggled to forget those experiences but sorry I couldn’t. 

I struggled to love myself but yeah I failed again.

I struggled to fight the demons around me but sorry I couldn’t.

You ask me how I’m doing , I tell you I’ve been fine .

But the truth is ,….

I’ve been feeling worthless and I’ve been out of my mind.

I try hard to run but I end up being slow . 

I guess I ain’t happy with the person that I’m. 

I’ve got many enemies and maybe they took  control of  me .

They made my heart bleed and my soul cry .

Sorry to all my friends and family . 

I couldn’t say it to you so I put it in a note .

I don’t wanna feel this pain anymore. 

I don’t wanna fight anymore. 

And dear, I don’t want you to feel bad about it .

For now , I wanna be alone.

For now , I hate myself, I hate my life . 

For now, this is the end …….. 

Sorry but now it’s time to say goodbye.

 

To,
All those beautiful spirits feeling suicidal….
Dear friend,
I know I don’t know you but I know you are going through much . I understand you live among demons and they are so loud and furious . I know you feel like giving up and you find no way . I know you fought a lot . You may feel hopeless now, but it’s temporary; there are so many other feelings within you that will replace the ones that feel so unbearable now. the pain — like the dizziness — isn’t forever. I know you have been exhausted. I know you would rather choose to leave than live . but listen , you can do much more . You can live and you are worthy of it . So I ask you to stick to life. If you stick around, you will reach a spot that the sadness won’t let you see right now — you’ll reach tomorrow and that place is filled with possibility. It’s a day you’ve never been to. It’s not this terrible day. you may be stronger, or see things differently, and life may look a way it hasn’t in a long time. It may look like worth staying for.

This is when a guy feels suicidal . It’s very hard to understand their mental state . To the closed ones, I’m happy I got you and I ain’t feeling suicidal . I just wrote about them and their mental state so that everyone can understand it . Now, you see you can’t understand few things until and unless you feel it . So, this note just defines their mental state and this basically tells us that they need someone to listen them without judging them . I hope it makes sense. Thanks for reading

-Aanchal Parmar

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